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He was quick to catch up to Charlotte before she could reach the end of the hall. He grabbed her arm and she turned to face him, her eyes completely blank. If it wasn't for the fact that she was his twin, he never would have known what to do. But this was something he'd seen from her countless times. The way she processed things, it was delayed and it always struck harder initially than it did for even him. It was always him calling her back, easing her mind and giving her perspective, but not once had it ever been something like this.

Miles looked down at his twin and frowned, "I'm sorry. I should have found you before we bailed on the party. I didn't mean to make you worry. But Max came, right? That's where you've been most of the time?" His eyes were soft and he kept his fingers lightly touching her arm as a way to offer some kind of contact to make sure he caught exactly what she was feeling.

Her eyes dropped and she nodded, "Yeah, I guess I should apologize, too, huh? I didn't exactly stick around for you tonight." She trailed off quietly and he knew she was avoiding speaking what she was thinking. Instead of pressing her for more, he waited silently for her to come out with it. It only took a moment and she took a deep breath, "You had sex.... With Spence." Except it wasn't a question because she knew.

He chewed on the inside of his cheek and watched her face, "Is that such a bad thing? You know Spencer better than anyone, Lot. And you know me. Is it so wrong that her and I hooked up?" Miles realized the words felt strange coming from his mouth. He didn't want it to be just a hook up, but for now, until he talked to Spencer, that's what it was. "You know I've always had a thing for her."

"I just.... I don't know, Miles. You're my brother and she's my best friend. What happens if it doesn't work? I...you're my brother, I wouldn't lose you. But I would lose her...." Tears started welling up in her eyes and Miles realized that he hadn't thought it all the way through. "You have no idea how much I want it to work, but...the odds...I don't know."

Miles took her hand and pulled at it, "Alright, c'mon. You need to talk to her about that because it isn't up to me whether you lose her or not." While she protested at first, he started dragging her unwilling ass back to his room and opened the door. "Spence?" He nudged Charlotte further in and jerked his chin towards the balcony, "Go on."

But I think I’ve found the light.

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Miles stood behind his sister, his arms crossed against his chest. If it was anyone else other than him standing between the two of them, he knew it wouldn't have been an issue. Nobody got between them and he wasn't sure he wanted to be either. Although, he knew what Charlotte was getting at. She'd expected things to happen much slower than they had, a kiss, handholding maybe. Not sex. Sex often led to a much stronger emotional connection for virgins and, well, Miles had been the only virgin among the three of them. Her fears were warranted, but Miles also didn't regret what happened. He was no more emotionally involved with Spencer than he had been before because he wasn't sure there was a way to be more in love with her.

His expression softened when Spencer looked at him and he saw the hint of tears behind her eyes. She was scared, it came off her in waves. To be fair, he couldn't quite figure out which of them it was coming from because his sister had the same fears. He cleared his throat pointedly at Charlotte and she looked back at him with a frown before turning back towards her best friend.

"I...you know, I've known the way Miles felt about you forever. And I always wanted you two together.... I always thought about how cool it would be if we got to be sisters," She looked down at her feet and chewed on her lip, "But with that comes the potential that it doesn't happen. That you two don't work. He's my brother, Spencer, and there's no way I could lose him." She looked back up and felt the tears starting to roll down her cheeks, "But I could lose you. And that...I...I can't handle that."

Miles hated seeing the two of them so torn up, both in tears. He rubbed the back of his neck, "Can we just accept that nobody has to lose anyone? I mean, we've all known each other long enough, it shouldn't be that hard."

But I think I’ve found the light.

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Charlotte clung to her best friend for dear life. When she pulled away, Charlotte scrunched her face against the kiss that was planted on her cheek. She laughed and rubbed her best friend's back, her eyes lifting to her brother who was holding fast to the other free hand of Spencer. It made her feel a little more comfortable, knowing that they had each other, but that Spencer wasn't willing to pull away from her.

Miles kept a tight hold to her hand when she pulled back from his sister once more and he brushed his thumb across the inside of her wrist, trying to keep the relief from his face that the two of them were okay. Charlotte was smiling through her own tears and she brushed Spencer's hair out of her face, "Well, now that that's been cleared up. I, uh, I need to get back to my own date. Because some of us decided to wait until the end of the party for our shenanigans." She wiggled her eyebrows and smiled at the two of them. "Oh and side note, James and Maya and Will and Cassidy were also missing from the party. Ya nasties." She smirked and gave her best friend one more tight squeeze before ruffling her brother's hair and making her exit back down the hall, wiping her eyes.

Once his sister was out, Miles slid his arms around Spencer's waist and pulled her closer to him, "See? Told you I could handle it."

But I think I’ve found the light.

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Miles slipped his arms around her waist and tilted his head with a smile. He had never seen her look at someone the way she was looking at him, but he also wasn't sure if he just had goggles on because he was as happy as he was. She tried for sultry and he laughed when she did until she pulled away from him. At that, he wasn't too thrilled with. He groaned and followed after her, "You look fine, Spence, come back."

He settled himself against the doorway as she washed her face and couldn't help the goofy grin on his face. While she didn't think she was all that beautiful without the makeup, he couldn't decide which he liked better. She looked more familiar without it all. Like she did when they were younger, back when he'd first started to fall for her. She started to wipe her face off with the towel and he frowned, "Only if you think so. You know I think you look good no matter what."

He pushed off away from the doorway and came up behind her, slipping his arms around her from behind. Miles kissed her shoulder and then the side of her head and gave her a light squeeze, "What do you say to a date, ya know, once we get back to the States?"

But I think I’ve found the light.

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His eyes never left her face and when the smile slipped, his eyebrows pulled together. If it hadn't resurfaced as quickly as it did, he might have started to panic. Already he was unsure of himself, even though he tried his hardest not to be with her. He'd seen the guys she went for, confident and smooth-talking. He knew he wasn't a smooth talker, but he could try to be confident. All he had to do was watch his uncle and the way Will held himself. They both seemed so comfortable with themselves like they could do anything without question.

Miles wasn't quite sure he'd ever get there.

She kissed his cheek and his arms tightened around her, his shoulders releasing the tension that they'd held. His eyes slid shut and he smiled, "Good, I would, too." Charlotte was going to need to help him. Or maybe he could ask his brother on this one...perhaps not. His mind filtered through all of the people he could trust to steer him in the right direction for his first date. Not only with Spencer, but his first date period. He pressed his cheek against hers before pecking it lightly.

He gripped her hand and nodded, "I suppose we could do that. Are you...I mean...would you..." Miles laughed and shook his head, unaware of why he felt so shy now. "Stay with me tonight, in my room."

But I think I’ve found the light.

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Miles smiled when she answered the way he'd been hoping for her to. It was still a little unnerving that he was going to have her sleeping in his bed with him, even with the events that had just occurred. He was eighteen years old, it was only fair that he finally start acting like it. His anxiety had always been paralyzing and often made him revert back to a younger mindset, but Charlotte had eased him out of it during the majority of their teenage years, it was only fair that Spencer take the reins for this part.

He pulled her towards the Hall and noted that they would be following his older brother and his best friend in as well. He clamped his lips together and tried not to think about that although he could understand what Charlotte was feeling earlier. Her whole family, save for Eva, had bailed with their dates and left her to hope that her date even showed up. If Max hadn't, well, he supposed things would have likely not turned out the way they had. Small victories.

Miles sifted through the crowd to find Charlotte and the rest and smiled when he spotted his twin cozily sitting beside her date. "You wanna see if we can get better music playing? Or do you want to hit the bar?"

But I think I’ve found the light.