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Post by Eos * on May 26, 2017 0:00:56 GMT
{ } She would never claim it to be rational feeling - nor one she truly understood. In fact - there had been little thought at all until she suddenly found herself standing in front of the familiar blonde, both hands perched on his shoulders and her brows furrowed in deep thought.
She had unpacked the van, helping her father brings the several crates of various beverages into the back of the club. She'd kept her head low and her eyes away.
Until she hadn't.
In truth, she had no claim on him. She couldn't fault him for who he didn't talk to or who he did. It didn't seem as if her sub-conscious had agreed, though and here she found herself having pulled an important business man into a back room, away from what had likely been an innocent conversation.
Tip toeing so she could look him directly in the eye without arching her neck, Luxanna drew her brows together - partly in contemplation and partly in confusion.
What was she thinking? "Never to touch, and never to keep. You loved too much, and you dived too deep." ulla |
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Post by Eddie * on May 26, 2017 7:26:40 GMT
i wanna hear you sing baby sing Carter was completely willing to put on the business front for this occasion. He pulled at the sleeves of his perfectly tailored suit jacket, like he truly needed to ensure its perfection. He never struggled and never stumbled in these kinds of instances; today was going to be like any other day. He never really considered that Lux would be there. Nor did he consider that she would care for his actions as he leaned in a fraction too close to someone invested to someone who was less interested in what he said and more interested in what he did. But what he wanted to say was completely lost on her; he was gone before the words could leave his mouth.
He let himself be lead, because why wouldn't he? He didn't particularly care about the person he left behind; he clearly showed his devotion to this person instead before.
Standing there, he let himself be stared at. His eyebrows narrowed a touch in his own confusion. Usually, he wouldn't land himself in a back room like this just to be stared at. She seemed to be contemplating something. Was she questioning herself or him?
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Post by Eos * on May 27, 2017 19:27:33 GMT
{ } When the single word filled the air, Luxanna finally realized exactly what she'd done - and how insanely out of character it was. Even if said character was mostly an illusion of what people wanted her to be, but right now, she had little time to really think about that.
"Uuuuhm." Was all she managed. Raking her mind for anything, something to say, she found herself at a loss of words. In truth, if she had to answer the question about what she was doing honestly, she didn't think she'd be able to come up with a response. She didn't understand her own actions herself, so how could she possibly begin to explain them to someone else?
Instead, the brunette remained still, hands still clasped on his shoulders though her gaze wavered, dropping down to her hands as if seeing them for the first time. "I..." she began, brows furrowing as she flexed her fingers, tapping them gently against the soft fabric of his suit. "Don't know?" "Never to touch, and never to keep. You loved too much, and you dived too deep." ulla |
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Post by Eddie * on May 27, 2017 23:13:05 GMT
i wanna hear you sing baby sing The drawn out word Lux offered had Carter raising his eyebrows. It looked like every action had crash landed in her mind at once, and there they stood in complete solitude while she tried to piece herself back together. Single taps against his shoulders worked to remind him that she was actually holding onto him, a concept that had escaped him until that gentle reminder sparked.
He offered a small, uncontrollable chuckle to the answer she gave. Oddly enough, it wasn't the first time he'd been in such a position; dragged away by someone unwilling to follow through with the most basic of needs. Reaching out, he pressed both his hands against her waist. It seemed safe considering where he could have put them.
"A touch of jealousy, chère?" He asked her, unable to wipe that grin from his face. |
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Post by Eos * on May 28, 2017 0:07:14 GMT
{ } The chuckle surprised her more than her own actions had; it was such an unnatural sound coming from the taller blonde. It wasn't that she thought him incapable of genuinely laughing - it was more that she didn't think he often found it suitable to.
She might have given his wandering hands a second thought had it not been for his words; and the incredibly smug look that followed. Unable to look away, Luxanna followed the way the grin curved on his lips with furrowed brows; a tinge of embarrassed annoyance flared in her gaze.
Still, she couldn't deny it. It had been an unfamiliar feeling to her. One she'd been unable to place. And yet she supposed that was exactly it. "Perhaps," she mused then, as if the concept of it was now more interesting than the feeling itself. "Never to touch, and never to keep. You loved too much, and you dived too deep." ulla |
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Post by Eddie * on May 28, 2017 0:27:03 GMT
i wanna hear you sing baby sing She looked annoyed, but there were a few things to be annoyed about. Was it his hands? She didn't flinch beneath them like Carter thought she might. She didn't seem phased at all. But it harboured the same kind of look she had given him last time they met; so caught by his humour, it seemed. It probably sounded... Chastising.
So he pursed his lips when she replied again, determined not to laugh else she might really feel unappreciated.
"Dare I ask why?" He said, tilting his head forward a fraction, like breaking the surface tension between them, "You were awfully quick to leave me last time we met." |
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Post by Eos * on May 28, 2017 0:32:37 GMT
{ } "I don't know," she replied immediately, one shoulder lifting to offer a shrug. She really didn't know, but then, there was quite a lot of things Luxanna didn't know. All of this was new to her; sure, she'd cared for quite a lot of people in her lifetime. Caring was something that came easy to her, but it usually ended with that too.
She could've easily told him he hadn't given her much of a choice, but that would have been wrong of her. There was always a choice to be made and she'd only conveniently used his words as an excuse to make the easiest choice; to leave. It was also a little ironic of her to drag him away, after so easily agreeing to let him be - simply to spare him the burden.
"I guess I was," she settled on, hands dropping from his shoulders and to her sides; which was still occupied by his hands. Caught between the notion to take a step away to give herself room to breathe which she didn't really need and thinking it might be rude of her to, Luxanna sighed. "Sorry." "Never to touch, and never to keep. You loved too much, and you dived too deep." ulla |
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Post by Eddie * on May 28, 2017 1:08:14 GMT
i wanna hear you sing baby sing In the silence she made him endure, Carter wondered if he should have considered her feelings at all in the first place. Perhaps given the confession he made, it was wrong to be so close to another person so quickly. He didn't feel as if it hollowed his sentiment, but he never considered that she might think otherwise.
That first apology reminded him of the Luxanna who often hid herself away from the company of others. Muted. Introverted. He felt his hands creep further around her waist to drag her in a fraction more, like trying to save her from herself.
"Are you apologising for not knowing?" He asked her then. Still trying to help, he supposed; "Or for where we are right now?" |
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Post by Eos * on May 29, 2017 8:22:14 GMT
{ } His hands, now a very glaring faction to consider and although she didn't resist, she could feel the familiar warmth fill her body and travel through her veins, only to end as a crimson tint against her cheeks.
"Both," she replied without hesitation, though her voice was low. She wondered briefly if her indecision ever got annoying. She supposed that at the end of the day, it didn't really matter. She couldn't really expect anything - nor did she - when she didn't really know what to expect.
"Both," she repeated, this time with more resolute. "Never to touch, and never to keep. You loved too much, and you dived too deep." ulla |
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Post by Eddie * on May 29, 2017 8:51:04 GMT
i wanna hear you sing baby sing Carter felt as if he watched pieces fall into place with imperative connections being made. Each passing second seemed to remind her of where they were. How they were. Did she even really like it? Well, she was here with him, so that couldn't really be a question. He knew he should have bought the hesitation she used, but somehow he simply couldn't. He didn't offer her a single stint of concern as he had last time they met. This was different.
Still, he didn't let his hands move again. No, they were fine where they were. She seemed fine where she was, considering she could have let him go by now.
"No body ever drags someone away like this without a known reason." he replied instead. Sure, it might have been easy and even courteous to her to pretend like she was, but he wasn't about to give her that satisfaction. She couldn't make moves and refuse to continue on. He'd never babied her before, and he wouldn't start now.
"I mean really, why apologise for taking something you clearly want?" |
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Post by Eos * on May 31, 2017 20:03:20 GMT
{ } Luxanna couldn't, at least not without feeling guilty afterwards, tell him he was wrong. At least, not fully. It wasn't that she didn't know - she didn't understand it. Falling silent once more, she contemplated her own actions again, still no closer to an answer. She hadn't been using her brain earlier - or so it had felt like, but instead let her body do what it wanted. What did it mean?
Before she could answer, though, Carter continued. Was he right? Had she stolen him away because she wanted him? It was such a selfish action, such an alien conclusion it almost felt strange.
But more importantly, it was so out of character.
Staring at him, she wondered; had her previous resolution to heed his wishes truly been so weak she couldn't even go a few weeks before breaking it?
"Huh," was the only thing she could think of responding as her eyes lit up with clarity; she wanted him - Carter Chavalier, the playboy. It was such a redicilous realization it made a chuckle escape from her parted lips. "Never to touch, and never to keep. You loved too much, and you dived too deep." ulla |
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Post by Eddie * on Jun 15, 2017 22:09:37 GMT
i wanna hear you sing baby sing Waiting for her to decide her own actions felt like a new kind of torture. Carter had always been straight forward with each and every one of his desires; there was no need to waste time waiting. That was, so long as the stipulations held a kind of casual nature. In this instance, it didn't feel like she was searching for answers as to why he wouldn't give her anything more, so he didn't consider it.
The way she laughed always carried a curious kind of warmth. It was the style he'd almost gotten used to living without, but once it hit the air, he almost felt nostalgic in its presence.
"I can't say I'm used to being laughed at in such a position." He admitted, practically softly as he felt the grin on his mouth shift to a different smile. Sure, he'd always enjoyed spurring her on whenever she made rash, quick decisions, but even he couldn't keep a straight face here. |
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Post by Eos * on Jun 21, 2017 20:30:58 GMT
{ } "Right," she said, her expression growing somber. Still, she didn't move; she was still piecing all of this together. She wasn't quite sure how this realization made her feel and truth be told, until she figured that out, doing these things wasn't fair towards him, even if she expected nothing from him.
And somehow, she kept finding herself in similar situations such as this, either because she'd done something rash or because he backed her into a corner. She didn't really mind as much as every encounter with him only further confused her.
But that seemed to be theme around him; she was never really certain of anything.
"I suppose that's yet another thing to add to the list of things I'll apologize for," she said ruefully.
"Never to touch, and never to keep. You loved too much, and you dived too deep." ulla |
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Post by Eddie * on Jun 29, 2017 8:03:14 GMT
i wanna hear you sing baby sing Now it felt as if they were stalling; Carter stood so close with his hands immobilised on a familiar form while she tried to figure herself out. This had been a decision born of her own intention, and so he wanted her to lead the charge. Whatever the charge would be.
But it almost turned sombre when she continued on. He did his best not to look concerned; he was supposed to be stoic.
"What else is on this list?" He asked her lightly, knowing all too well that she had no reason to apologise for the last time they saw each other.
He'd considered the instance more than he'd like to admit, and this was hardly the time to admit that. |
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